CHINO, Calif. (AP) — Leslie Van Houten, the youngest of Charles Manson's murderous followers, was granted parole by a California board Wednesday.
Van Houten, who was 19 when she killed for Manson during a series of murders that terrorized Los Angeles over the summer of 1969, appeared before a parole panel for the 21st time.
The decision now goes through a process of review in which Gov. Jerry Brown may uphold, reverse or modify the decision. He could also send the matter to the full Board of Parole Hearings, or take no action, in which case the parole decision would stand.
A similar panel at the California Institution for Women in Chino, where Van Houten is incarcerated, granted her parole last year but was overruled by the governor.
In reversing that panel, Brown said Van Houten had failed to adequately explain how a model teenager from a privileged Southern California family could have turned into a ruthless killer.
On Wednesday, the panel grilled her for two hours on how she could address the governor's concerns.
"I've had a lot of therapy trying to answer that question myself," she said.
She added, "To tell you the truth, the older I get the harder it is to deal with all of this, to know what I did, how it happened."
When the panel announced its decision, Van Houten smiled.
"Thank you very much I really appreciate it," said the frail-looking, gray-haired prisoner who attended the hearing on crutches because of a knee injury suffered in a fall.
Her attorney, Rich Pfeiffer, expressed relief afterward, saying he believed they had addressed the governor's concerns.
"My hope is he's going to follow the law and let his commissioners do their job," he said.
Pfeiffer said his client was relieved and happy.
"I'm getting her out of here. That's not an issue. The question is when," he said.
Van Houten has candidly described how she joined several other members of the "Manson Family" in killing Los Angeles grocer Leno La Bianca and his wife, Rosemary, in their home on Aug. 9, 1969.
She was not with Manson followers the night before when they killed pregnant actress Sharon Tate and four others during a similar bloody rampage.
At her parole hearing last year, Van Houten said she helped hold down Rosemary La Bianca while another Manson follower stabbed her repeatedly. She then took up a knife herself and added more than a dozen stab wounds.
"I don't let myself off the hook. I don't find parts in any of this that makes me feel the slightest bit good about myself," she said.
Since she was incarcerated more than 40 years ago, Van Houten has been a model prisoner and earned college degrees.
Relatives of the La Biancas spoke emotionally Wednesday as they argued against parole for Van Houten, saying they don't believe she has really ever accepted responsibility for what she did.
"No member of the Manson family deserves parole, ever," said nephew Louis Smaldino. "She is a total narcissist and only thinks of herself and not the damage she has done."
The La Biancas' oldest grandson, Tony LaMantagne, also addressed the panel, his voice breaking as he noted he's about turn 44, the same age his grandfather was when he was killed.
"Please see to it that this fight doesn't have to happen every year for the rest of our lives," he said.
Sharon Tate's sister, Debra Tate, told the panel she believes parole should be granted to those who have been rehabilitated, but she doesn't think Van Houten has been.
The victims' family members left before the panel announced its decision.
Members of the Tate and La Bianca families have argued repeatedly against granting parole to her or any other Manson follower who took part in the killings.
None has been freed, and one, Susan Atkins, died in prison in 2009. Manson, now 82, remains behind bars.
After Van Houten was tentatively granted parole last year, Debra Tate gathered 140,000 petition signatures opposing her release.
Van Houten was both the youngest and also seemingly the most unlikely member of Manson's so-called family.
She had been a high school homecoming princess, athlete and cheerleader before dropping out of school and joining the ragtag band of ersatz hippies who considered Manson, a career con man and petty criminal, to be a Christ-like figure.
She has testified that the trauma of her parents' divorce, her teen pregnancy and other problems led her to drop out of school, run away from home, become involved in drugs and eventually join Manson's cult.
In an attempt to bolster her chances for release, Van Houten's attorney put another former Manson follower, Catherine Share, on the witness stand at a court hearing in Los Angeles last week at which she testified Van Houten was so young and impressionable that she was afraid to leave the cult.
"Some people could not leave. I was one of them that could not leave," said Share, who added Manson threatened to have her tortured and killed if she tried.
Share, who didn't take part in the killings, added she believes Van Houten was also afraid to leave. She said she regretted encouraging her to join the cult.
AP reporters Don Thompson in Sacramento, California, and John Antczak in Los Angeles contributed to this report.