By Kasey Joyce
Jackson, MO (KSDK) - The pain of losing Jacque Waller is something Stan and Ruby Rawson wake up feeling every morning.
"They say if you cut your arm off it won't feel any worse than when you lose your child," Stan said. "There's just something really missing. You realize that."
And over the past year, that's something Jacque's 6-year-old triplets have learned to realize too.
"They all still talk about mom," Ruby said. "They ask, 'What did she do, what did she like, did she do this, did she do that?' They just ask all types of questions."
Questions that her family knows Jacque will never be able to answer. Her estranged husband, Clay, sits in jail, charged with her murder. The charges bring some comfort to the Rawsons, but there's still one major question left unanswered.
"Where's our girl?" Stan asked. "Where's the tombstone that has her name and says there she is, kids, that's where your mom's at. We haven't got that. And that's what bothers us."
The Rawsons are holding out hope that someone will find Jacque's body and bring them some small amount of closure. But even then, there's no way to ever fill the void she left behind.
"I miss her so much," Stan said. "I feel like a year don't make any difference. I feel like she could come walking in the door any minute. But she's not going to do that."
The Rawsons spent tonight surrounded by family, friends and their church at a vigil for Jacque Friday night. Saturday there is a 5k run in Cape Girardeau in her honor. It starts at 8:30 a.m.
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