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Comedian Louis C.K. knows about hard times, but he never got so low that he wanted to take his own life – and he's not happy about it.

"No, I've never been suicidal. But I've wanted to be," he admits to GQ in its latest issue.

He recalls the pre-success days of his career when the NYC stand-up scene was dying, he noticed he was balding, found himself broke and pushed out by the studio when he worked on the 2001 comedy Pootie Tang.

"It never stopped getting worse. I remember thinking, This is too much for me to handle. I wanted to give up. I knew it was my right to. But then a few minutes would go by and I'd realize, I'm still here. In other words, there was no escape from it. And I'd be a little disappointed at not being truly suicidal. I hated being 'all right.' "

Of course, now he's an award-winning star with a hit TV show and a new perspective on life.

"All of that has helped me form what I call my 70 Percent Rule for decision-making," he says.

"These situations where I can't make a choice because I'm too busy trying to envision the perfect one — that false perfectionism traps you in this painful ambivalence: If I do this, then that other thing I could have done becomes attractive. But if I go and choose the other one, the same thing happens again," he waxes philosophical.

"So my rule is that if you have someone or something that gets 70 percent approval, you just do it. 'Cause here's what happens. The fact that other options go away immediately brings your choice to 80. Because the pain of deciding is over. And, when you get to 80 percent, you work. You apply your knowledge, and that gets you to 85 percent! And the thing itself, especially if it's a human being, will always reveal itself — 100 percent of the time! — to be more than you thought. And that will get you to 90 percent. After that, you're stuck at 90, but who the (bleep) do you think you are, a god? You got to 90 percent? It's incredible!"

Indeed!

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