ST. LOUIS, Mo. (KSDK) - The patient across the room from Dr. Samer Al-Kaade had no idea that the doctor who was helping him, was carrying a heavy heart.
Dr. Al-Kaade is one of the top pancreatic doctors in the region. He's also Syrian.
"I feel like I'm losing my country," he said.
He woke up to videos of children shaking and trembling, men and women with masks on their faces and what looked like a triage area on the floor - images that were recorded in his homeland more than 6,000 miles away.
He didn't know what to make of the video. He said the truth is hard to find in the rubble of war in Syria. His family members are casualties. His 17-year-old cousin was shot in the leg just walking to school. His sister came to St. Louis 10 days ago to escape the violence and protect her children. His parents, uncles, nephews and another sister are all caught in the middle.
"They leave their house to buy bread or go to work, they are taking a risk of losing their lives," he said.
"Each side has a point of view. Each side has people who believe in that and they're willing to die for it," he said.
He said going to Syria now is impossible. He said the possibility he would get shot or kidnapped is very real. He can't take the chance of leaving his two small children in St.Louis without a father. He keeps in touch with his family on the internet, and through the phone. He dreams every night of seeing them again, having dinner, walking down the streets of Syria like the old days and listening to the songs streaming from the corners.
"I dream about those things every night," he said.
Dr. Al-Kaade said many Syrians are leaving their homes to go to out of the country to camps in nearby Jordan. Syrian doctors in St. Louis and across the country are gathering medical supplies and other necessities to take to those camps.